Lately I seem to be at a loss for words when it comes to this blog. I can write for days about the house, but when it comes to running… some days I don’t even feel like a runner. I feel like this girl who used to be a runner and had to stop, and wants to get back into it but can’t. And yes I know, the reason I am not getting back into it is because I am not making it a priority.
Because my workouts as of late have consisted of complete weekends spent installing our new floors.
And yes I consider that a workout. Only a few times in my life have my hamstrings felt so sore and one of those times was probably after a marathon. And after two days of installing floors. Ouch.
Oh yea and a little bit because of bronchitis.
What’s that? Basically in the two weeks of January I spent more days sick than healthy. What started as the tiniest of tiny coughs turned into being sick on the couch, days off of work, and a less than fun bought with bronchitis.
So what started out as “Hell yes January time to get back into the gym”, became, “Holy crap I can’t move and/or breathe there is no WAY I am setting foot in the gym”. Add to the fact that every time I leave work and look up at the gym (my work gym is on an open 2nd floor) it is S-U-P-E-R crowded. Thankfully, every morning I wake up feeling just a tiny bit closer to normal, although I really want to give my body a change to get back to normal before putting it through the stress of exercise. I know, having been through this before that rest is SO important.
So even though I haven’t been running, and was getting over being sick I was reading my latest copy of Runner’s World before bed the other night (Yay for sticking to my resolutions and reading before bed to decompress!) when I came across this:
Ever since getting hurt I have been wondering when everything will go back to normal. Just reading about running makes me miss the days when going out for 5 or so miles before breakfast was as easy and routine as brushing your teeth in the morning. I’m not there. I’m a lot way from there.
While Ralph already has his entire 2013 race calendar planned out, I am constantly wondering, “what’s my next race”. I’m still very much in the mindset that I don’t want to race just for fun. I know I won’t be happy with the results and more so, I’m afraid that I will push myself to hard in training and get hurt again. Runner’s World is right, I really REALLY need to take this year to get better, no matter how slow it takes. If I sign up for a race, no matter the distance, I’m going to want to do well. Sure I will plan smart and take my time base building, but deep inside me I crave the speed work. I crave the workouts I used to do years ago when life was less complicated and the only thing I had to worry about after work was which running shorts to wear.
What I constantly struggle with, and have probably since the day I started running, is my main source of motivation comes from training with a purpose. And that purpose is a race. I know it’s silly, because I do truly love running. I love getting amped up for a run, I love the feeling you get while running, and I love the feeling of finishing a run, even if it was a bad one. But with out a race, with out a structured training plan pushing me towards a concrete goal, I have a really tough time making running a priority. The pressure to do well in a race keeps me sticking to my schedule. Otherwise it’s so easy to think “what does it matter if I skip this one run”.
So help me out here, for once I am not the one with all the great motivation and ideas and inspiration. I need to spend this year learning about me, and how to get myself a healthy runner with out getting hurt again or putting pressure on myself to do well in a race. How am I supposed to convince myself that it’s a good idea to get out of bed in the morning and go to the gym with nothing to train for? Perhaps the knowledge that if I don’t do it now, it’s only going to get harder the longer I wait. I’m only going to get more out of shape the longer I put this off. I guess when I put it that way it helps kick me into gear a little bit.
How do you stay motivated to run with out a race?